by Robert Cinque
From shock and fear, I dramatize betrayal, abandonment, and worthlessness
I collapse from love and create suffering through self pity and blame
I blame others and transfer ownership of myself to them.
I create scapegoats and false gods in my rage.
I destroy Love and betray it and accuse others of betraying me
I create doubt and fear. When I fear I want security. When I want security, I empower false gods, tyrants, experts, strategies, and substances to save me.
I am a fundamentalist, a fascist, and a tyrant in an ego cult of one.
I enslave others in my hellish condition of dread
I abuse others with my self pity
I dramatize abandonment and rejection and self pity and fuel all my other lesser addictions with it.
I harm myself and others with my addiction to a false self, an idea, a victim/robot who imagines itself to be separate from Love
I am a cultic worshipper in my exclusive ego cult of one.
I imprison others by my withdrawal from Love
I condemn others to the dungeons of my lovelessness
I betray Life by my withdrawal from Love.
My collapse and withdrawal from Love is sickening and starves all my relations.
I use these conditions to justify my accusations of betrayal.
I use other’s failure to love me to justify my own failure.
I betray Love and blame others for it
I reject love, then dramatize betrayal.
I make others wrong
I impose my agenda
I am a recovering ego addict because I notice the obvious Beauty and Love at the Heart of Existence and the way in which I obstruct it.
I am not separate from Life and Love
I am free to be in alignment with Life and Love or not.
I am responsible for the consequences of my alignment or non alignment with Life and Love.
I use my non alignment with Life and Love as an excuse and reason for self pity
I am inherently, already unified with what is always already the Case: seamless unity between consciousness and matter, God and self, whole and part.
I am recovering from self pity and the willingness to tolerate lovelessness in myself
I am a whirlpool in a River of Light
I am a recovering ego addict.
I am responsible For and To Love.
I maintain Heartfelt Intimacy with the Truth of Love, the Core of Reality.
I do not withdraw from my Actual Condition as a Whirlpool in this River.
I trust the White-Hot Core of Existence.
I trust Life’s Brilliance.
I am thrilled by the Intensity and Freedom and Love of Life
Life flows from Love, the Condition of all things
I am Always Already one with Life
Life is Love, I am That
Life is Love
Love is Truth
Truth is God
God is Reality
Reality is Light
Light is Love
I Love Life
I am responsible for Love
I am responsible to Love
My revulsion at my failure to love is the beginning of awakening
My responsibility for Love is authentic spiritual practice.
I am responsible for my choice of contexts, concepts, and conclusions, including their effects, outcomes and consequences.
I am free to love and to be what I already am, or not
I am responsible for everything I think, say, and do and their effect, implication, and consequence are my responsibility
I am responsible for the suffering I create.
I am intrinsically intimate with all beings.
I am a recovering ego addict